The relatives who Survived now live in Israel and the inability to live together with them causes great suffering and anxiety. We get up every day and we pray with our thoughts that the next day will be a lucky one and will bring us relief. And every time we alternate between hope and despair when we are called to the OVIR in order for them to inform us that we have again been refused visas. In this one year we have aged ten years. We have lost our knowledge. our competence as specialists. and the constant uncertainty in which we live is destroying us.